A Moment of Peace

Trees & Sky. Murrieta Hot Springs - Murrieta, CA

Hello Sunshines,

Today was a great day full of intention and gratitude, but also with guilt. I am lucky enough that since about May 2025, I started taking pilates classes in order to strengthen body from all of the damage my body endured from my 2 pregnancies. The business where I take my classes, are part of a monthly "Self-care Sunsets" hosted at the local hot springs. During this period, there are free classes for anyone to partake in and local artisans and small businesses promoting Health, Wellness + Positive Lifestyles (perfect for us).

Self-Care Sunsets. Murrieta Hot Springs -Murrieta, CA.

It was my first time in a long time being actually outside and doing something just for me. I went with a girlfriend and fellow mother-of-two and it was definitely a much deserved moment of peace for the both of us. The first class was an outdoor pilates classes which was a great way to kick off the event. The turn out was great and the instructor was perfect. Then for the next hour, we took a break to peruse around try some samples and support some local businesses. All of the foods that we tried all got a little coin from us and it was worth it.

Side-bar, I felt like I was teasing all of the people taking the class in between the 2 classes we took as I was eating this giant ear of corn in front of them as they were burning the calories.

Break Time.

The next class we took was the sound bath class. I have always wanted to take a class like this and I knew I would enjoy it. As the class started, it was a little hard to follow, but the moment it was time for the sound bath, it was a dream. I could feel the healing powers of the sound bath coming over me. As much as I wanted to just close my eyes and take a cat nap, my body wouldn't let me because it was all in on the experience. On the 3rd & 4th round, my head started tingling and I knew that was the frequency for me. Later, I asked the instructor and she said it was most likely the Crown Chakra before I described to her what I felt. It definitely made sense to how the top of my head was tingling.

Sound bath.

As I was taking this class, I had such happiness and sadness come over me as I layed there in the soft grass looking up at the peaceful skies and the palm trees lightly dancing in the wind. I felt so blessed that this was actually my life. It was almost like a dream that came true, but just as soon as that feeling of bliss came, a sudden wave of guilt crashed onto the shore. I felt guilty that I was able to have this moment of peace, happiness, clarity, safety, and wellness - when there are so many without. I was feeling so blessed that my children are happy, healthy, and safe, and then juat as quick - guilt - as there are so many travesties happening throughout the world against our innocent children.

I didn't expect to feel this way at that very moment, but that is what happened. At first I was confused and conflicted. Then, I took a deep breath and said a prayer into the wind. I pray that one day, everyone past and present can find a moment of peace.

I pray you find yours.

All my best,

Dianne Ocan, FNP

Your Friendly Neighborhood Nurse Practitioner